Thursday, July 21, 2005
Oh how I wish for this year to end. I got O levels and prelims coming up. To top that off, I got piano exams soon. Exams, exams, exams. Full of 'em. I'm getting my MT O results next month. I wonder how I would do... I really don't wanna retake the paper. I never want to touch MT ever again. But fuck it, I got no confidence that I would get a B3, which is my goal.
I'm not sure what course or school I want to go to next year. I don't know what I should be when I grow up. I know I want to make movies and music but the amount of support that Singaporeans give to local talent is just miserably retarded. I promised myself I want to move out of this hot and expensive little island when I grow up. I believe there's a better place on earth somewhere out there for me. But then again, to get out of Singapore I need cash. And the sad truth - No CERTIFICATE = no JOB = no CASH! That's right. Your entire life is decided by a few pieces of paper.
I'm starting to feel like a stranger in my school. I used to feel so attached to it. I felt that I belonged. All the familar faces and surroundings... But it's all different now. The school has changed so much. I miss the old Northbrooks. The times when a chair dropped during recess and everybody would jeer altogether. The times when we would clap in a rhythm with somebody hitting the floor after a performance during assembly. The Family Days which we had so much fun in. The times when breaking was actually something special to Northbrooks. So special that me and the rest were allowed to dance in front of the General office and be the final performance for Miss Lam before she left. Things sure have changed. Everyday in school I see so many people that I don't even know was in the school(Lol). Ah well. I'm leaving Northbrooks soon anyways so its all good.
I need to wake up.
Somebody help me.
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